May 7, 2015

:*:BLOG TOUR:*: My Time In The Affair by Stylo Fantome

I made a conscious decision to cheat on my husband.

Now, before you judge me, hear my story. Hear how much I'm like you, how similar my thoughts are to your own. Yes, I'm a horrible person. Yes, I've done horrible things. Yes, I don't deserve forgiveness. Yes, bad things happened because of my actions.

But I'm willing to bet I've done things that maybe, just maybe, you have thought of doing.

Maybe, just maybe, you're not as innocent as you'd like to think.

Or maybe I'm not so guilty ...

WARNING: This book involves CHEATING. The word AFFAIR is in the title. The main character has an AFFAIR. In the synopsis (directly above), she states that she intentionally has an AFFAIR. If you don't like CHEATING, then you have been VERY WELL warned. Also, this book is primarily written in the third-person narrative. 
How much I wanted him took me by surprise. I didn't want to feel that way – I'd been telling the truth. I wasn't looking for another relationship. Clearly, I wasn't good at relationships, and had no business entering into an already-fucked-up-relationship without ending my last totally-fucked-up-relationship.
But it was like he understood me. I could say anything to him, literally anything, and he just got it. He didn't think I was a horrible human being for cheating on my husband. He didn't care that I was married. Didn't care that I was emotionally stunted most of the time, and physically inhibited some of the time. All he cared about was being with me. Everything else, that was just background noise.
I hadn't ever known that kind of freedom, to just be myself, one hundred percent. Say whatever I want, do whatever I want, in all situations. You just can't be like that with most people, there's always a filter that needs to be in place. But not with Tal.
Not in any situations.
I was drunk on him. High on him. I wanted to swallow him down, inhale him, inject him. I wanted him to live under my skin and change my DNA. I wanted to live in his air and breathe his passion.
I thought maybe, just maybe, I could overdose on him. If I could just take him one more time, and shut my eyes, and it would be the last time, with anyone, with anything, that would be alright. Guilt would be gone. Hurt would be gone. Confusion would be gone. Oppression would be gone. Obsession would be gone.
My memory would be his, I would only exist in his mind, and that was fine.
It was the only place I wanted to be, anymore.
 My Review

First of all, I feel like I need to say that if you have read Stylo Fantome’s Kane Trilogy, and are expecting this book to be somewhere along the lines of the same thing, you will be in for a surprise.  It’s completely different.

As the title implies, yes there is cheating involved in the book. BUT!  My Time in the Affair, is sooo much more than cheating.  This book is a journey through one woman’s life.  Mischa is finding out who she is, rediscovering, and learning to live with the choices she has made. 

This book is not all butterflies and rainbows.  That is for sure.  I think it is a telling tale though, of the lives of soooo many people that decide to cheat.  Sometimes it’s not impulsive, it’s thought out and there are reasons, just as in Mischa’s case.

This book was gritty, and raw, and angsty.  All of the top things that I love in a book.  The only thing that I had a small issue with was the 1st/3rd person changes, but I loved the story, and I would recommend it to anyone!

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About the Author
Crazy woman living in an undisclosed location in Alaska (where the need for a creative mind is a necessity!), I have been writing since ..., forever? Yeah, that sounds about right. I have been told that I remind people of Lucille Ball - I also see shades of Jennifer Saunders, and Denis Leary. So basically, I laugh a lot, I'm clumsy a lot, and I say the F-word A LOT.
I like dogs more than I like most people, and I don't trust anyone who doesn't drink. No, I do not live in an igloo, and no, the sun does not set for six months out of the year, there's your Alaska lesson for the day. I have mermaid hair - both a curse and a blessing - and most of the time I talk so fast, even I can't understand me.
Yeah. I think that about sums me up.
The author is giving away (open international)
   A My Time in the Affair swag pack and signed paperback
2 signed paperbacks

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